Every January, I would buy several magazines, freshly marked with the date of the new year, as a way to celebrate. I would relish the time spent looking at the crisp pages and reading the articles that reveal the secrets to being happy and thin and being in control of relationships and the laundry. Recently, though, I stood staring at the magazine covers and realized a pit in my stomach began to form just thinking about the glossy images inside. Each page seemed to whisper, “You are not thin enough to be worthy. You are not pretty enough, cool enough, young enough, just not enough…”
These subtle thoughts run in the background of my mind and dance on my self-confidence. My ritual of buying January magazines always seemed like such a great way to motivate myself to reach my new year’s resolutions. I never noticed how much my mind-set would shift from positive goal setting to negative self-image.
Don’t get me wrong. I still want to achieve my goals. I just want to find a different motivator this year. All the negative self-talk honestly exhausts me. How many more years do I need to beat myself up to realize the end result is far less rewarding if it comes at such a high cost to my well-being? My motivator this year needs to be LOVE. Love for all of me. Every part. An absolute love fest.
Honestly, it won’t be easy. There are times I won’t remember I made this commitment to myself. I bet each of us makes this type of commitment to our friends every day, though. Wouldn’t you know EXACTLY what to say to a friend who wasn’t feeling like the amazing person she is? So let’s make a pact. When we can’t remember to do this for ourselves, let’s be strong for one another. Repeat: “I am loved. I am a beautiful being. I am enough. Always!” xoxo
P.S. Anyone else ditch resolutions and opt for choosing a “Word of the Year” instead? My 2016 word is Bold. What do you want to focus on this year? Please SHARE YOUR WORD below! (Studies show you will be more invested when you tell others what you are up to! Pinky Promise.)
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